Things are a little messy around our house these days. Contents have been removed from drawers and cabinets, and we are selling items to friends and on Craigslist as fast as we can.
As we make our way through things, I’m feeling a emotionally overwhelmed. It is hard for me to stay focused these days, and I don’t enjoy the things I usually love – writing, spending time with friends, going out. It is taking a lot out of me to get rid of everything and move into a new future.
This is surprising the hell out of me.
I think the problem is that we are making a lot of sacrifices now for a trip that won’t happen for another few months. We have yet to see the benefit of all this hard work, and it is wearing on me (and Warren, too, when it comes to work).
Of course we’re going to stick with it, but I wanted to share with you that the feelings are not always gung-ho for the new life, and at times – especially when you are really close to your goal but not quite there – the work and sacrifice can seem overwhelming and make you question whether the goal is worth it.
I have less to give these days, and for the last few days I’ve just wanted to hibernate. I know the feeling will pass, but in the interests of transparency I wanted you all to know how I was feeling.
Have you ever been a little overwhelmed as you have gotten close to a goal? Do you think it is really overwhelm, or could it be fear that your dream is finally coming true? These are some of the thoughts running through my head these days.